New girl in the city. Yes, I am a new girl in this city of New Delhi. And you know what,
I’ve been living here since forever.It was in 1996 that I was born and its been exact 22
years and I’m still living here, in this new city with all my family and friends, with all my
near and dear ones. They’ve always been with me whenever I needed them. You know, it
isn’t easy to have a bunch of people by your side in this city. People leave you here more
often. Well, isn’t this strange? It was strange to me some years back, well, now it isn’t.
Now it’s just the same way things have been since forever.
People come and go with the flow and I’m not really writing this for anyone specific. This
is just the way I feel about this city and it’s people. You can imagine meeting so many
new people in a day but the more you are surprised by the fact is that people may not
show to you their real face. You’ll be surprised to find the real person if you ever come to
know, the person won’t even look like a real person to you.
And yeah, about this city, well what should I say? I’ve not visited every part of it but
whenever I visit and wherever I visit, I’ve to find something new there like say, a pile of
garbage like say, people crowded around an accident but they’re just around looking at
the victims as if they’re the ones unable to take action.
I’ve lived in this city like forever and mind it, I’ve given smiles to random people and felt
good about it. Helped a needy and got his blessings.
In this city, everyday is a new day. I would not say that I don’t love this city but you know
how we feel when we’ve a lump in our throat and we’re unable to speak? And lump, not
because of some biological problem but because of things, situations and circumstances
around you. There’re things for which you’re not even able to speak up. You think of
keeping your mouth shut a better option. And how do you feel when your whole body is
aching and you can’t help but just bear the pain because even medicine takes time to
heal your ache?
Well, maybe it is like the same feeling. And, how do you feel when the first and the last
thing you rely on is no more reliable?
This is how this girl feels. This is how ‘I’ feel. ‘I’ an entity. ‘I’ an individual. I am
inadvertently a part of this city but don’t feel to be a part of it. I am a fragment of all the
people who belong here. Maybe, it can never be explained in words how alienation feels
like but this is how alienation looks like. Maybe, we just adjust. Is it we getting old? Or
the city?
Well, the city never forgets to maintain its newness isn’t it?
Always offering with a surprise or a shock.
How often do you feel like that?
Well, I am a ‘new girl in the city’.
You can always come and say a ‘hi’.
Let me hold the curtain,
Writing belly 